Put On Your Big Girl Pants and Take Charge.

This is the break where I take back my life.

Last quarter, I needed a break. Against my better intentions, during said break I was a sloth and slept most of the time. I spent a ridiculous amount of time on the Internet. But, when I got back to school this quarter I did so much better. More energy, less stress. Overall, a major improvement.

But I wasn’t 100 percent and could feel it begin to slip at the end. My denial of my current organizational state and cluttery conditions needed to be faced head on. It began with the simple idea of your average pile-to-file organization. But, I needed to go through the boxes on my shelves to make some room so I did that. One thing led to another and soon my room exploded. I eventually got all the way through my room and it looked great. I found a place for everything and everything had a place.

For a moment.

I briefly hesitated but acknowledged the reality, looked at that back closet door and knew that I had to keep going. Then my room exploded again. Once that four hour project was complete, I moved to the upstairs closet and it exploded. And, it went on. And on. I DID THIS FOR MANY DAYS.

Each explosion led to another which led to epiphanies which led to another cluttered closet.

I realized that I needed a spring cleaning in my home and my head. To help me find the liberation of balance and equilibrium. I’m slipping on things that need to be done. I end up losing out on things I’ve wanted or having to throw something away because I missed an opportunity. I looked around at my belongings and I knew this secret mess contributed to the fogginess in my head and vice versa.

With the help of some inspirational blogs (zen habits, unclutterer) and dogged determination I got control of my clutter. Since I was so good at hiding my clutter behind closed doors, my house looks the same, but now it just feels better.

My motto this quarter was “Put Your Big Girl Pants On” (thanks, Jen). And that, I did. Moving forward it’s about finding, and keeping, the balance. It’s about fiercly owning those Big Girl Pants.

donations of just one of the trips to the local thrift store.

does a girl really need this many bags!?!?!